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4:47 AM
Hello world!Been a long time since i last posted.So yeah,many things happened in 7 days?Many changes.Hais.Anyway,i aint gotta post something very long,gotta study fer Chem SPA tomorrow!Ahhhhh!SPA,so dreadful.Actually,everything's dreadful now.Haha.
I've made up my mind!I shall not rant to anyone anymore!I shall rant to the mirror! xD
Takecares people!Byeee!
7:30 AM
Without hat! (:
My new keychain that's my horoscope!
Unfinished 1 foot long subway.Lol.
Simply breathtaking?Taken outside my window.Hello world.Guess i didn't have anyone to talk to tonight?Yeah.Been thinking bout' super loads of stuffs.Trying to cope.Haha. (:
Realised many stuffs,and now i love the mirror,cause of a certain reason which nobody knows. :D
I wont say much here le,will listen to banana and not blog so much.Will note everything down somewhere else better.
Gonna be 12 soon already.Guess i gotta crash soon.Takecares.Bye people!Goodnights.
You made the right decision in breaking.I'm proud of you.
P.S i'm still not over you.
5:37 AM
Hello.Been quite some time since i last posted?Or is it just a few days.Whatever.Today was suppose to be a happy day,but yeah never one day can i expect it to be happy.It always get turned upside down in the end.I really cant think straight now?Like trying to calm down,after what happened then start quarreling with my mum again.Yeah,life's unfair,to me,that's so damn true.My temper's back,still trying to control my vocab,does'nt seem to be working though.Whenever i listen,all i get back in return,is another blow to my life.Everytime i try to recover,i'd get hit again.Life hasn't been great so far,i think i wanna retain this year,for my own good and maybe others.I seriously need liquor to chill man,gosh.I don't think i wanna hope anymore,or try anymore.Everything's my fault in the end.If there's one thing i learnt,i've learnt not to try to be a nice guy.I'm just gonna go back to the way i was in sec 1.I wish i went to Catholic High.I wish i suffered from brain damage so i cant remember a thing.I wish things wouldn't end up like that.I wish that y w c b.Most of all,i really wish now that im no better than dead.Life sucks,sucks to the freaking core.I guess im gonna retain myself this year. (:Anyway,really no mood to post already.Guess imma keep all of the rest inside my little black book!Takecares.Bye.If you'd see this,then yeah.I just wanna say,the day i take down the P.S i'm still not over you part,is the day i'd get over you,but for now i'm not.You asked me to hate you?Sorry i really cant,cause i really love you too much and i want you back.We'll be strangers now,but i hope that you'd come back still,if you still love me maybe months or years down the road.Yeah i'm different and stuffs,cause i thought you could control me.Hais.I'm sorry then,will still try to control myself.Takecares girl,and i'm sorry but i just love you too much to let go.P.S i'm still not over you.
5:16 AM
HELLO WORLD!Sorry didn't blog for the past few days!Was really busy with stuffs and work.Haha.I'm taking a new perspective towards life now?Trying to.Laughing i think is much easier,fake laughter seems natural now.LOL.Although i have nightmares still,i'll live through it.Haha.The nightmares are dumb,but really scary though. ):Went out to Plaza Sing yesterday to catch ICE AGE 3!It was freakin' hilarious,nearly laughed like throughout the damn movie.Spent like 20 bucks,so i gotta save this week.It was worth spending though,had a lil' bit of fun.Haha.Did some work after the movie,then headed home! (:Okay.So let me list out the pieces of homework i owe,English,Maths(many worksheets),Chem,Phy anddddddd GEOG!The LORMS questions are killing me.Haha,but its okay.Trying to finish by tonight.I guess i gotta go rush my homework!!!Super too much workload.LOL.Normally don't burn elephhant,last minute hug buddhas leg!Guess that cheng yu.LOL.Kay la,i go off already!Byee people!Takecares!imissyou,iloveyou.
P.S i'm still not over you.
9:31 PM
Hello world!Didn't post yesterday.So yeah,skipped school yesterday due to some stuffs,not really cause of being sick though.Hais.But yeahh,doesn't matter anymore.I've realised what a loser i am,how much i've lost.Hais.My life just always doesn't turn out right man,why?I guess i must've been a real big ass in my past life to be suffering in my present one.
Hais.I'll really try my best to be a good friend since i've lost the chance to be a good boyfriend.It's okay,loving someone doesn't mean you have to be with that someone what right?
I've been thinking over many stuffs,really thinking hard.I just cant forget it,those times in the past.Hais.The fireworks,the mooooon,everything.Hais.Ohwell,guess really no fate.
Hais,but deep inside i just wanna be with you and hope you'd give me that one last chance.If things doesn't work out then i really have nothing to say already.
Sometimes i wonder,what if i die today?What'll happen?Haha.My only wish and dream now,T B W Y,but it's okay.Someone once told me dreams don't come true,so i know i no hope anymore. (:
Hais,but really no more chance le.I've been crying so bad,thinking bout' how you were happy on the outside with me,but inside i don't know what's going on.
It's okay,what's matter are the memories,but what are memories?Haha.Thinking bout' the past makes me wanna sobsob.lol.So yeah,the only way not to is to relive them again,but really no way already. (:
Hais.I just really need this last chance,but i know you wont give it to me anymore.I've lost already,really lost.
Anyway,my mood swings are back.Feeling down now. ): SOBS.Haha.Think imma go off already,so yeah.CIAOS!
I just wanna say,i love you alot,and no matter how much i wanna be with you again and spend time with you like in the past,i know i cant.Just think about how much i've sacrificed willingly and us spending time together in the past,limit it to one day a week now,and i hope i'd get that chance.The past few weeks really made me realise how much i want and willing to change.I just need you back by my side girl. ): I thought i could move you,now i know i can't.
Hope you'd gimme one last last chance to prove myself?Hais.Don't get angry if you see this,i just really mean everything,including the letter.Hope you'd come back home soon. ):
I love you BB,always and forever be BB.
P.S i'm still not over you.
8:05 AM
Hey again.Fine i know im dumb keep posting,but yeah.It's difficult to keep to my slogan even though i came up with it?Hais.Dumb-ness.Hais.I made new friends today though!My newest yet already known friend,KX!Haaa,talking bout the dumbest things man.Hais.I dont know,but things are getting worse than before.Why do i always lose my cool?Whether it's now or before,i just cant stop being J.Hais.WHYWHYWHY.
Hais.I guess i really lost my last chance?Girl i love you so much,so dont ever say you're gonna leave or anything okay?I really just want you back so so so much,but i guess i messed up badly today.Hais.I'll try to smile everyday just to make you feel better ba,even if it feels fake,i'll just have to try.I love you lorena,i really really do.I hope,that really one day you'd return my ring as a sign to patch.I love you girl,muacks!
I really have so many regrets,i wish i can start my life over and just study hard and make the right choices.Hais,but it's impossible,just like something else.I dont think i wanna sleep today,hoping i'd fall sick so tomorrow dont needa go school.Hais,but gotta finish some work ba,so yeah.Bye people!
P.S i''m still not over you.
Without hat! (:
My new keychain that's my horoscope!
Unfinished 1 foot long subway.Lol.
Simply breathtaking?Taken outside my window.
