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Friday, July 3, 2009

9:31 PM

Hello world!Didn't post yesterday.So yeah,skipped school yesterday due to some stuffs,not really cause of being sick though.Hais.But yeahh,doesn't matter anymore.I've realised what a loser i am,how much i've lost.Hais.My life just always doesn't turn out right man,why?I guess i must've been a real big ass in my past life to be suffering in my present one.

Hais.I'll really try my best to be a good friend since i've lost the chance to be a good boyfriend.It's okay,loving someone doesn't mean you have to be with that someone what right?

I've been thinking over many stuffs,really thinking hard.I just cant forget it,those times in the past.Hais.The fireworks,the mooooon,everything.Hais.Ohwell,guess really no fate.

Hais,but deep inside i just wanna be with you and hope you'd give me that one last chance.If things doesn't work out then i really have nothing to say already.

Sometimes i wonder,what if i die today?What'll happen?Haha.My only wish and dream now,T B W Y,but it's okay.Someone once told me dreams don't come true,so i know i no hope anymore. (:

Hais,but really no more chance le.I've been crying so bad,thinking bout' how you were happy on the outside with me,but inside i don't know what's going on.

It's okay,what's matter are the memories,but what are memories?Haha.Thinking bout' the past makes me wanna sobsob.lol.So yeah,the only way not to is to relive them again,but really no way already. (:

Hais.I just really need this last chance,but i know you wont give it to me anymore.I've lost already,really lost.

Anyway,my mood swings are back.Feeling down now. ): SOBS.Haha.Think imma go off already,so yeah.CIAOS!

I just wanna say,i love you alot,and no matter how much i wanna be with you again and spend time with you like in the past,i know i cant.Just think about how much i've sacrificed willingly and us spending time together in the past,limit it to one day a week now,and i hope i'd get that chance.The past few weeks really made me realise how much i want and willing to change.I just need you back by my side girl. ): I thought i could move you,now i know i can't.
Hope you'd gimme one last last chance to prove myself?Hais.Don't get angry if you see this,i just really mean everything,including the letter.Hope you'd come back home soon. ):
I love you BB,always and forever be BB.

P.S i'm still not over you.