In the everyday life of BRANDON!

2009-07-27T04:47:00.000-07:00

Hello world!Been a long time since i last posted.So yeah,many things happened in 7 days?Many changes.Hais.Anyway,i aint gotta post something very long,gotta study fer Chem SPA tomorrow!Ahhhhh!SPA,so dreadful.Actually,everything's dreadful now.Haha.

I've made up my mind!I shall not rant to anyone anymore!I shall rant to the mirror! xD

Takecares people!Byeee!

2009-07-17T07:30:00.000-07:00

Without hat! (:

My new keychain that's my horoscope!

Unfinished 1 foot long subway.Lol.

Simply breathtaking?Taken outside my window.

Hello world!Didn't blog for a few days ba.Nothing much to blog about for the past few days.It's really like reliving the past,but whatever.Things haven't been going well for me?It has always been this way,forever making the wrong moves and ruining the chances people give to me.Made a very wrong move?Ruined everything.Sian.So I wanna change!Here are a few changes:

1.Make the right decisions and moves!
2.Boost my ego!
3.Study harder!
4.Get on with lifeeeeeeee. ):

So yeah,didn't do anything much for the past few days?After school go do some work with banana.Went CompassPoint yesterday and did maths!Went home after that,then went to the gym.HARDCORE WORKOUT BABY!80kg OF WEIGHT FEEEEEEEELS GOOD! (:
After that went back home the stupid shaky hands thing start again.LOL.Slept late again,like every other day,cant really get to sleep though.

Todayy,not really a good day?Many things happened.In class somemore.Zzz.Sibei sian.Went toilet first period,kinda vomited my breakfast?lol.Dont know why eh,suddenly puked.Haha.Then super hungry!But still skipped recess.Boohoo. ):
Went out around 5 plus again.Gosh something super dumb happened la.So i went J8 for dinner,went subway to eat.For y'all info,my second time to subway.LOL.Then i ordered,the guy ask me 1 Foot or 6 inches bread?I stunned.I not very hungry so i wanted the smaller one,BUT I DIDNT KNOW WHICH ONE SMALLER!So i kept guessing,then i thought 1 foot sounded smaller cause there's 6 inches but only 1 foot.LOLOLOL.SO I ORDERED 1 ****ING FOOT!The guy served me,the bread was huge.Then i was like thinking,how huge will the 6 inch be if mine was only 1 foot?Then,this lady beside me ordered a 6 inch.The guy took out a loaf which looked the same size as mine,then he cut it to half and pass to the lady saying that was 6 inch.Then inside,i already know i kena ****ed upside down.NOW I KNOW HOW IMPORTANT IS MATHS AND PHYSICS!LOLOLOL.THEN SOMEBODY KEEP LAUGHING AT ME!MAKE ME EVEN MORE PAISEH!WALAO!Lol.Had a SUPER FULL dinner,then went arcade for awhile.Somebody kena chase out.hehehehe.Wasted 5 bucks on a stupid catch toy machine.Bought a keychain for myself. (: Then,came back home around 10.

Sorry for hurting you,but remember,you're the only one who's really hurt.

Tomorrow going for amazing race!Fun on Foot! (: WISH ME LUCK!PRIZE MONEY'S 2K! $_$
Haha.Gotta rest early already!Goodnights everyone!

P.S i'm still not over you.

2009-07-13T08:38:00.000-07:00

Hello world.Guess i didn't have anyone to talk to tonight?Yeah.Been thinking bout' super loads of stuffs.Trying to cope.Haha. (:

Realised many stuffs,and now i love the mirror,cause of a certain reason which nobody knows. :D

I wont say much here le,will listen to banana and not blog so much.Will note everything down somewhere else better.

Gonna be 12 soon already.Guess i gotta crash soon.Takecares.Bye people!Goodnights.
You made the right decision in breaking.I'm proud of you.

P.S i'm still not over you.

2009-07-12T05:37:00.001-07:00

Hello.Been quite some time since i last posted?Or is it just a few days.Whatever.Today was suppose to be a happy day,but yeah never one day can i expect it to be happy.It always get turned upside down in the end.

I really cant think straight now?Like trying to calm down,after what happened then start quarreling with my mum again.Yeah,life's unfair,to me,that's so damn true.My temper's back,still trying to control my vocab,does'nt seem to be working though.

Whenever i listen,all i get back in return,is another blow to my life.Everytime i try to recover,i'd get hit again.Life hasn't been great so far,i think i wanna retain this year,for my own good and maybe others.I seriously need liquor to chill man,gosh.

I don't think i wanna hope anymore,or try anymore.Everything's my fault in the end.If there's one thing i learnt,i've learnt not to try to be a nice guy.I'm just gonna go back to the way i was in sec 1.

I wish i went to Catholic High.
I wish i suffered from brain damage so i cant remember a thing.
I wish things wouldn't end up like that.
I wish that y w c b.
Most of all,i really wish now that im no better than dead.

Life sucks,sucks to the freaking core.I guess im gonna retain myself this year. (:

Anyway,really no mood to post already.Guess imma keep all of the rest inside my little black book!Takecares.Bye.

If you'd see this,then yeah.I just wanna say,the day i take down the P.S i'm still not over you part,is the day i'd get over you,but for now i'm not.You asked me to hate you?Sorry i really cant,cause i really love you too much and i want you back.We'll be strangers now,but i hope that you'd come back still,if you still love me maybe months or years down the road.Yeah i'm different and stuffs,cause i thought you could control me.Hais.I'm sorry then,will still try to control myself.Takecares girl,and i'm sorry but i just love you too much to let go.

P.S i'm still not over you.

2009-07-07T05:16:00.000-07:00

HELLO WORLD!Sorry didn't blog for the past few days!Was really busy with stuffs and work.Haha.I'm taking a new perspective towards life now?Trying to.Laughing i think is much easier,fake laughter seems natural now.LOL.Although i have nightmares still,i'll live through it.Haha.The nightmares are dumb,but really scary though. ):

Went out to Plaza Sing yesterday to catch ICE AGE 3!It was freakin' hilarious,nearly laughed like throughout the damn movie.Spent like 20 bucks,so i gotta save this week.It was worth spending though,had a lil' bit of fun.Haha.Did some work after the movie,then headed home! (:

Okay.So let me list out the pieces of homework i owe,English,Maths(many worksheets),Chem,Phy anddddddd GEOG!The LORMS questions are killing me.Haha,but its okay.Trying to finish by tonight.

I guess i gotta go rush my homework!!!Super too much workload.LOL.Normally don't burn elephhant,last minute hug buddhas leg!Guess that cheng yu.LOL.Kay la,i go off already!Byee people!Takecares!

imissyou,iloveyou.

P.S i'm still not over you.

2009-07-03T21:31:00.000-07:00

Hello world!Didn't post yesterday.So yeah,skipped school yesterday due to some stuffs,not really cause of being sick though.Hais.But yeahh,doesn't matter anymore.I've realised what a loser i am,how much i've lost.Hais.My life just always doesn't turn out right man,why?I guess i must've been a real big ass in my past life to be suffering in my present one.

Hais.I'll really try my best to be a good friend since i've lost the chance to be a good boyfriend.It's okay,loving someone doesn't mean you have to be with that someone what right?

I've been thinking over many stuffs,really thinking hard.I just cant forget it,those times in the past.Hais.The fireworks,the mooooon,everything.Hais.Ohwell,guess really no fate.

Hais,but deep inside i just wanna be with you and hope you'd give me that one last chance.If things doesn't work out then i really have nothing to say already.

Sometimes i wonder,what if i die today?What'll happen?Haha.My only wish and dream now,T B W Y,but it's okay.Someone once told me dreams don't come true,so i know i no hope anymore. (:

Hais,but really no more chance le.I've been crying so bad,thinking bout' how you were happy on the outside with me,but inside i don't know what's going on.

It's okay,what's matter are the memories,but what are memories?Haha.Thinking bout' the past makes me wanna sobsob.lol.So yeah,the only way not to is to relive them again,but really no way already. (:

Hais.I just really need this last chance,but i know you wont give it to me anymore.I've lost already,really lost.

Anyway,my mood swings are back.Feeling down now. ): SOBS.Haha.Think imma go off already,so yeah.CIAOS!

I just wanna say,i love you alot,and no matter how much i wanna be with you again and spend time with you like in the past,i know i cant.Just think about how much i've sacrificed willingly and us spending time together in the past,limit it to one day a week now,and i hope i'd get that chance.The past few weeks really made me realise how much i want and willing to change.I just need you back by my side girl. ): I thought i could move you,now i know i can't.
Hope you'd gimme one last last chance to prove myself?Hais.Don't get angry if you see this,i just really mean everything,including the letter.Hope you'd come back home soon. ):
I love you BB,always and forever be BB.

P.S i'm still not over you.

2009-07-02T08:05:00.000-07:00

Hey again.Fine i know im dumb keep posting,but yeah.It's difficult to keep to my slogan even though i came up with it?Hais.Dumb-ness.Hais.I made new friends today though!My newest yet already known friend,KX!Haaa,talking bout the dumbest things man.Hais.I dont know,but things are getting worse than before.Why do i always lose my cool?Whether it's now or before,i just cant stop being J.Hais.WHYWHYWHY.

Hais.I guess i really lost my last chance?Girl i love you so much,so dont ever say you're gonna leave or anything okay?I really just want you back so so so much,but i guess i messed up badly today.Hais.I'll try to smile everyday just to make you feel better ba,even if it feels fake,i'll just have to try.I love you lorena,i really really do.I hope,that really one day you'd return my ring as a sign to patch.I love you girl,muacks!

I really have so many regrets,i wish i can start my life over and just study hard and make the right choices.Hais,but it's impossible,just like something else.I dont think i wanna sleep today,hoping i'd fall sick so tomorrow dont needa go school.Hais,but gotta finish some work ba,so yeah.Bye people!

P.S i''m still not over you.

2009-07-02T05:48:00.000-07:00

Hello again!Decided to delete the previous post,too many bad words!LOL.Okay i seem like i totally changed.But yeah,looked on the brighter side of life.Haha.Anyway,today's been a really weirdd day.Started talking to people whom i seldom talk to.LOL.Super weird.I got my new slogan already,it's called "SAY CHEESE!:D". LOLOL. Lame right?Finee.Haha.Anyway gotta chiong my work already,SUPER SUPER DUPER DUPER ALOT!Ciaooos!(:

2009-07-01T04:41:00.000-07:00

Hello world.Gosh,today was bad,really bad.Yesterday night couldnt sleep till 1am,I don't know why but after i lied down on the floor,cause i sleep on mattress on the floor now,my head starting spinning,and it's not a bit.IT'S FREAKING ALOT!So i just kept turning and turning,hoping it would go away,but it just got worse.Nearly ****ing vomited.Then slept late,woke up early cause had to help WenJie find his YEScom tickets at AMK KFC there.Walao,wake up early,in the end havent open,plus my bro told me it's 24/7.In the end,WenJie left it in school.So i woke up early,rushed bathing and stuffs,for what?ALL FOR NOTHING,but nvm la,know him so long already,so it's cool.

Anyway,went to school.Started off the day trying to laugh?Not bad though,worked out quite well.Though,was laughing about stupid things?Tried to sound gay with Larry to piss Sarah off.And yeah,it went so well.Then after awhile,thought about some stuffs,saw some stuffs,then again,mood went back to the same old shit.Hais.I SUPER DONT WANNA GO TO SCHOOL ANYMORE LA!WHY MUST HAVE SCHOOL!Please let me leave schooool leh,like seriously,it's just such a torture.Gosh.Hais.Really laaa,i never dread anything more than this now.Sian.Hais.Anyway,really freaking tired.Not enough sleep + Workout + Swimming = Really can die.I nearly bloody fainted i forgot when,i think it was during lunch,just everything went white.Then i just stared at Bryan wondering what they talking.Then seconds later super dizzy.It was very stupid.My friend gave me panadol,but couldnt eat cause eat very little breakfast,plus yesterday didnt really eat dinner and this morning skipped recess,empty stomach cant eat panadol,so had to drag for another bloody hour or so.Gosh.Like super just wanted to go home la,but school going to end already then nvm.My head hurts like hell now man,coughing and feeling feverish,bbbrrrrrr.I think i go rest already.Takecare people!Byee!

P.S i'm not still over you.

2009-06-30T04:59:00.001-07:00

Hello world!Just had dinner,no appetite.Two chicken wings and rice.That's all.Pathetic yeah?So today,was just another day in school.Got bloody scolded then me and Larry sit ouside class like paiseh can.Hais.Now,everyday's just like every other day,just so bloody dull.Went to have lunch at KFC,came home did some tuition work,then went to the gym.Hais.Trained like crazy,just kept pumping weights,but yeah its awesome.The feeling of being totally washed out,like you gonna faint,it's great at times like these.After that went to swim,played like sorta like rugby in the pool.Basket i one person kena tackled by 5 people,WHERE'S THE FAIRNESS IN THIS WORLD!So yeah,got punched in the face so many times,scrathes and bruises on my arms and even my legs?Like wtheck?But yeah,after everything being so bloody tired,can really sleep and don't wake up already.Yay!WOOHOO! :D

Owe every teacher work,not just a few but alot.Think i'm just gonna come home tomorrow to do work ba.Hais.I feeeeel so alone. ): Can anyone pei me?

Anyway,my tuition teacher come soon already.So bloody dreadful,actually just want to sleep till tomorrow,then see if can skip school.Coughing like really bad,can feel got phlegm already,so that's ****ed up.Hate cough man,everytime wanna talk then suddenly *coughcough*.Annoying.So yeah,i think imma go off already.Hope i can be awake later to post before i go to bed!By the way,i sleep on the floor now.(: It's really cooling,cause y'all know hot air rises!And the cold air goes below.Damn my science is good,although i failed both of them.I think i quit school better,already gone case.Haha.I GIVE UP ON EVERYTHING! :D

BYEEEE PEOPLE!

I really hate school.Hate hate hate.But yeah,my dad keep asking me whether im okay.What can i answer?All i can say to him is even if not okay also gotta act okay and be okay.Hais.So yeah,i hate my life,EVERY SINGLE DAMN PART OF IT!Hais ... ):

P.S i'm still not over you.

2009-06-29T07:02:00.000-07:00

Hello world.It's the first day of school,and truth is,i dreaded today.Hais.Y'all know i really feel like dropping out of school?Like seriously.Find some private school and just study.I'm not joking man,hais.There's alot of undone holiday homework,yet today i still went out to catch Transformers 2 again.This show just has alot of meaning to it,to me,but now it's meaningless.I dont think i have much to post today anymore,trying to skip school tomorrow though.Hope i can just dont school forever and ever.Hais.Byeee.

P.S i'm still not over you.

I just can't take it.Sitting there in class,being able to hear your warm laughters and see your sweet smile,yet i'm sitting there suffering every second.I nearly broke down in class,but i know how much commotion that'd make and will make you look bad.Hais.I don't want that.Just want you to be happy.I guess i should just really not contact you or anything.I'm just looking at photos of you,at least i have memories of them.Hais.Although i want you back so badly even though i know it's not possible,but i guess its okay.Memories of us will do.Thank you for showing me what love and relationship is.I'm just a beginner cause you're my first.So yeah.I love you alot,like more than i love myself,but it just,doesn't,matter,anymore.I guess i'm colouring the words of this since it's like really emo,even i find this emo,but yeah.I really can't freaking help it.I just wanna dieeee,peacefully and quietly.

2009-06-27T23:06:00.000-07:00

TWIST!

I'm the guy,lol.He's the mum. xD

Isn't he just the cutest?

My son ... Just kidding.

Hey people!Didn't post yesterday,was kinda shaggg,so i didn't bother.Anyway,yesterday was a fun day cause i spent time with my relatives!They came over to play.At first played pool with my cousin,won him but i knew is he let me de.Haha.And after pool went to another pool,the SWIMMING POOL!lol.Went to swim with one of the cutest baby on earth,my nephew RAY! (: Came back and had dinner with family,then played some "games" which involved money.LOL.Anyway,had lots of fun!So yeah,school's gonna reopen tommorow,that sucks,but nvm.Time to start working hard!Gambateh! (: Gotta go do work already,dont know if i'd continue posting frequently,hope I have the time.Ha.Till then,CIAOS!

I dont like to hide words,so yeah i wont put them in white colour or stuffs like that.Just wanna say i'll leave it up to fate.Hope fate loves me,and yeah,hope you'd come back too. (: Takecares.

P.S i'm still not over you.

2009-06-26T09:24:00.000-07:00

Hello world!Today's been an okay day for me only,and guess what?I bought my so-called diary + notebook!Ha!

Went J8 to catch a movie with my granddad,cause like very long time never accompany my granddad to watch movie already.So i picked the show The Taking Of Pelham 123.It's a damn nice thriller movie,except the coarse language.Like every sentence had a **** in it.After that pei my granddad walk around,went to buy another pair of school shoes which costed me 40 bloody bucks.Bought new pairs of socks too,but somehow all the colours all cannot wear to school,but the pink one's nice!

After that went to get dinner with him,then came home.Went to swim first then came up for dinner.I'm like doing hardcore workouts man,but it feeeels great,except that my hand is still freaking shaking.Zzz.

My mum brought me out like at 10+ and i just came back at like 12?Went to Safra Yishun to play pool,was really dumb though cause i was playing alone again.Freak.Lonerism.Yeah,that's my word.So yeah,just reached home.Saw some things that,hais.But yeah,nvm.Probably getting like super paranoid?Either that or i'm just plain insane.Life sucks though.Decided to delete all the past posts due to stuffs.Hais,realise things are just not going the way they should.But yeah,nvm.I guess i'll make use of the diary now.So yeah.Bye people!

P.S,i'm still not over you.